Today both my parents are not at home and I’m alone. The only happy thing of staying at home alone is that I could play my Blur record as loudly as I like and don’t have to care about my Mum’s criticism of my favourite music and bandsXD
Have nothing special to do…I only have one day off in weekends…Sigh…Tomorrow is a work day for me as usual…Plenty of boring and exhausting tasks for me to do…I want to resign everyday…BUT I know I have to hold on until the end of June this year…Actually I am really disoriented about my life…or say to be more realistic future job…I don’t know what I want to do…I have no idea of what I want to become…What job is preferable for me…
I know it’s useless to think negative things but I just can’t help it…
I really wish I will not make any mistakes in my job before I resign but…It’s hard…I’ll try anyway…
This morning, I have nothing special to do…So I take a walk alone in a nearby park with my iPod…The weather is hot but I think it’s good for a sick person with a cold to sweat a bit…I wish I could have a healthier body or I won’t be able to hold on for the busy tiring life…
I was listenning to The Perish’s album while I was walking alone and I found it’s quite good…though it’s not qualified for ranking in my five-star albums….It’s an old album that I have downloaded several years ago…But this time is my first time to listen to them…
I feel less and less music could be attractive to me since I have been really into Blur’s music…Don’t know why…Less and less music played on the radio is impressive for me …Don’t know why…
Recently I am a bit into the Verve’s 2008 reunion album while I was listenning to it again on my way to the office on bus…Don’t know why…Maybe I am as desperate as the voice and the music in it….Beautifully desperate hopeless sound…It’s brilliant…I am a bit fancy the Verve’s low-keyed guitarist Simon Tong, who was also Blur’s tour guitarist in 2003 when Graham was not in the group…Don’t know why…Maybe I share some same similarities with him I suppose…He must be a kind and nice man…A person with sweet nature…It must be very stressful and hard for him to tour with Blur as a replacement of Graham at that time…He was even scolded by Damon when he recorded the Good, the Dad and the Gueen album with Damon as a guitarist lol Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I am a bit into him…No matter how noisy his guitar is, he could always be calm and quiet…with dignity.AND the Verve’s reunion album is fantastic…Even though I don’t think so when first listenned to it several years ago…Sometimes what kind of music you like should depend on the time and the mood…I’m often grateful that I meet some “right” music in some specific stages of life…TWO-MIX,Backstreet Boys, Fray, Coldplay,Blur….and a lot more….Some of them I am reluctant to listen to them again now…But I’m glad I knew them…and add some flavor to my insipid life…
Oh I don’t know why I hate my job TAT Once I thought I would like it but it turned out to be the opposite…Enough complains.
Wish my Blur fan friends could have the luck to win plane tickets to travel to UK. Though I myself also wish I could go…But I know what I want is not just travel to UK and have a nice trip or exciting concert. I want to study there for a year *Sigh* And there’s nothing I can do to fulfil my dream even if I were lucky enough to win a plane ticket…Let it be a dream that could never be come ture…When I looked back my life, I feel I am such a stupid and naive person. I didn’t think much about my future career…I remember when I was 17, I just want to be an excellent student and then do well in the national university entrance examination and then progress to some key-point foreign lauguage university like my cousin in English major and then I could received further education in UK one day to open up my mind, just like my beloved cousin. Such a naive and stupid dream…I didn’t perform well in that damn exam and fail to be admitted to my dreamed university. I still remember I cried my little heart out for my broken dream. *Sigh*
Actually it’s lucky for me to know that I was admitted to my once dreamed university after five years. But even if you could enter that university you still couldn’t study in UK if your parents didn’t allow you to. And that’s the cruel practical truth. Everything is too late, isn’t it?
An old friend of mine asked me yesterday on the Weibo(We have become estranged from each other since we grew up…), why don’t you study in UK instead of HK? I answered because my family doesn’t allow me to…It brokes my heart after I typied those words. *Sigh* I am too weak in some way…Always listenning to my parents…But I couldn’t find a reasonable excuse to retort my parents…
Wish I could receive Bo’s postcard from Primrose Hill in the future lol
And wish eveything is all right before I resign…><
And wish I could travel to UK someday…Sometimes I think is there any chance for me to go to study there one day?XD Such as marrying a rich man and then if he is kind enough he could support me for my further education in UK?lol Joking…No way your silly Vitty.
Life still goes on.
Hold on for tomorrow…When I resigned I could buy myself a Blur’s leisure album =v= lol So hold on your job until the end of June XDDDD
